When the Uniform Feels Too Heavy: Addressing Suicide Among First Responders

We often see first responders as unbreakable heroes—rushing into danger, saving lives, and holding the line. But beneath the uniform, many carry invisible wounds that can become too heavy to bear.

The Silent Struggle

First responders face traumatic events regularly. Over time, these experiences can lead to mental health challenges, including depression and PTSD. Tragically, some feel that ending their life is the only escape.

Real Stories, Real Impact

• Chris Smetana, a seasoned paramedic, reached a breaking point after years of service. On a cold, snowy night, he attempted to end his life. Remarkably, he survived and now dedicates his life to helping fellow first responders navigate their mental health challenges. His journey underscores the possibility of recovery and the importance of seeking help.

• Clive Derbyshire, a Vancouver paramedic, developed PTSD after responding to a traumatic incident involving a close friend. His story, featured in the Canadian documentary After the Sirens, highlights the profound impact such events can have on first responders and the need for systemic support.

• Angela Graham-Houweling, a former firefighter, founded the Siren Project after losing seven colleagues to suicide. The organization offers retreats combining traditional therapies with innovative approaches like psilocybin-assisted therapy. Participants report significant improvements in mental clarity and emotional well-being, suggesting the potential of alternative treatments.

  

  Three Oaks Cabin, located in Florence, Ontario, stands as a testament to transforming tragedy into hope. After losing their son Dalles—a farmer and volunteer firefighter—to suicide in 2020, the Bergsma family built this serene retreat on their 50-acre woodlot. The cabin offers free stays to farmers and first responders grappling with stress, anxiety, or trauma. Partnering with the National Farmer Mental Health Alliance, guests receive support during and after their stay. The Bergsmas' mission is clear: to provide a sanctuary where others can find the solace and support Dalles needed.

Breaking the Silence

It's crucial to foster an environment where first responders feel safe discussing their mental health. Departments should provide resources, peer support, and encourage open conversations.

Exploring All Avenues of Support

In addition to traditional supports for mental health, it's equally important to consider emerging and lesser-known approaches that may offer relief. From neurofeedback to alternative therapies, expanding the toolkit available to first responders can make a significant difference.

You're Not Alone

If you're a first responder struggling with mental health, know that help is available. Anyone struggling with thoughts of suicide can call 9-8-8 or an organization like Boots on the Ground (1-833-677-2668) any time for support. Reaching out is a sign of strength, not weakness.